Hear how these people from different religions and life experiences came to put their faith in Jesus Christ. I hope their words touch your heart and change your life. If you'd like to see more videos like these, please click the label "testimonies" - I will regularly add more.

“From the fruit of a man's mouth his stomach is satisfied; he is satisfied by the yield of his lips. Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.” - Proverbs 18: 20-21

2016 has been a year. The internet, or at least social media thought 2016 was a terrible joke. There were many entertainers who died far too young. It was a year of political unrest, propaganda and division. We saw people unabashedly judge entire races on live TV. Ignorant remarks, riots and violence were seemingly everywhere. Conservatives and liberals were quick to blame each other for everything that was going wrong. Viral videos displayed how peoples words can spread love or hate; courage or fear.

"You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect." - Matthew 5:43-48

Hear how these people from different countries, religions and life experiences came to put their faith in Jesus Christ. I hope their words touch your heart and change your life. If you'd like to see more videos like these, please click the label "testimonies" - I will regularly add more.

“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.” - Philippians 4:4-9

The more I see of Jesus, the more I need to see. He continually illuminates and corrects my bad habits, perceptions and judgements. I’m amazed by this and am so grateful for His unending love and patience. It’s a real spiritual battle sometimes, but whenever I press into God for more understanding, He leads me there. There’s been some really exciting things that He’s been showing me lately and I’m eager to grow in love, wisdom, maturity, and (especially) humility.

I’ve lived with an irrational fear of rejection for a long time. In June I began talking to God about this. He revealed why I’ve been this way and brought some specific people to my mind so I would forgive them. What really helped this along was not only forgiving them, but praying for them as well. He's been re-wiring my brain to be much more empathetic and kind. It’s impossible to stay angry with someone who you’re actively desiring good things for.

God showed me that I've had this wrong mentality towards Him as well. I was worried that the Holy Spirit would leave me. I didn’t think I'd lose salvation (He promises that’s impossible), but I’d worry I wouldn’t feel Him anymore. This fear became so intense that I'd avoid seeking Him entirely. I'd still read the Bible and pray, but my walls were firmly in place between us. There was a 3 - 4 week period where I didn’t feel God at all and became even more convinced that His presence was actually withdrawn from me. I just knew it was my fault and I’d have to get over our “honeymoon period that only new Christians experience” (a few people said something like this to me).

I became upset at church seeing others being filled with His joy while I wasn’t. Focusing on my feelings was the wrong thing to do, but I couldn’t seem to get over my lack of Him. When I momentarily escaped the erratic tempest of my mind and remembered his goodness, I’d begin to feel His presence again. Yet instead of rejoicing in this or connecting the dots, I’d get scared that He’d leave again. I’d become desperate in my soul, begging: “Don’t go! Don’t go!” but that’s exactly what seemed to happen as a result. All I wanted to do was cry. I just knew I was doing everything wrong and so I felt like a total failure. He told me He loves me, but I didn’t understand why this was happening. All my prayers around that time were so desperate and burdened: “Please let me feel you God. I know you love me, I know I’m your child, but I can’t go on without feeling you too.” I’d already lived my whole life without a direct connection to Him and after tasting how good He was, after He opened my eyes to this new life with Him, how could I possibly let any of Him go?

In July I began attending an early morning small group for women. The leader of the group has the Spiritual gift of Words of knowledge (this gives a person the ability to know what God is currently doing or intends to do in the life of another person. It can also be defined as knowing the secrets of another person's heart.). While we were praying, she came over to me and without me telling her anything about this personal struggle, she began speaking to me from God directly about all of it. She spoke exact answers to all of my prayers and confusion, with words that were based firmly in Scripture. He said to me that He would never reject me or forsake me, that this isn’t what he does to His children. I could do everything wrong every minute of every day and He will not go anywhere. He never removes His Presence and he is always available to us, even if we don’t feel it through our disbelief. He told me to stop trying to fight my way to Him in fear and start trusting that He is good and his promises are true. She prayed with me for at least 5 minutes while I sobbed and rejoiced. My heart became so light and unburdened after that. It was everything I needed to hear and the answer to every lie from the enemy that I was accepting and believing. Fear like this is the opposite of trust and faith in his goodness. I cannot delight in God’s presence if there is lack of trust in my heart. I should always expect great things from my amazing God and open myself up to Him with eager expectation. My God really loves me and wasn’t hiding His face from me.

I recently began a new job in Dublin. The first week was a solid 5 days of absolute, perfect peace. That isn’t exactly normal for an introverted, self-conscious and slightly socially challenged person. What changed? I knew without any doubt that God gave me this job. This wasn’t a random thing, it wasn’t a fluke, it was 100%, completely ordained by Him every step of the way. My faith in this fact was so complete, that there wasn’t any room for anxiety about it. I just knew that God has a plan for me in that place and He’s going to use me change people's lives. Trust and faith in God’s plan automatically produces a consistent level of peace and joy in our souls. I’m so excited and honored to be used by Him that I’m filled with love for almost every person I meet. I see people through God’s eyes instead of my old “are they judging me?” lenses. The beautiful women who I’m tempted to be self-conscious around or the men who look so stern and important are all just normal people like me who try to hide their underlying fear of judgement and rejection. That makes everyone I meet an immortal being to love and be charitable with my time and energy. I’d like to say that I was able to love people before Jesus came into my life, but it’s difficult when you’re so busy being scared of them.

Flesh mode = distrust, fear, judgement of others
Result of flesh mode = anxiety, tight stomach, tension, cloudy mind, bad attitude

Spirit mode = trusting God, love, judging my own heart, being kind and merciful to others
Result of Spirit mode = peace, joy, love, relaxation (yet still productive!), clear mind

Since I began this job, God has shown me how to be constantly vigilant of the shift in my soul (mind, will and emotions). Not only do I feel the obvious tension in my stomach that comes with the fleshy / worldly thoughts and worries, there’s a physical weight on my brain. The more I know about Jesus, the more I trust Him, the more I love Him and the more He enables me to follow Him.

Jesus is changing how I feel, think of others, treat others, react to pressure and think of myself. He's changing everything that's sinful: taking out the old and replacing with the new. It’s much less of me and much more of Him. I will take all I can get!

Hear how these people from different countries, religions and life experiences came to put their faith in Jesus Christ. I hope their words touch your heart and change your life. If you'd like to see more videos like these, please click the label "testimonies" - I will regularly add more.

No one desires depression, anxiety or low self-esteem, yet we sometimes arrive there. I had an arsenal of weapons to combat all unwelcome thoughts or feelings. I'd talk to my loving and encouraging husband. I ran to improve my health and fitness. I got the jobs I wanted, in the industry I wanted. I tasted great food and wine. I travelled. I blew off steam on nights out with music, dancing and alcohol. I cultivated an online brand of "stable and happy wife with a relatively interesting life".

It was in the calm, quiet nights that my guard was down and the depression would descend.

People don't like me. I'm a fraud. I'm not a good person. This is all meaningless.

Everyone desires pleasure, fulfillment and joy. I could never quite get there - wherever "there" was. Some people think they need to find "the one". Well, I have been happily married for several years. I love my husband deeply and (I'm speaking for him here, but...) he loves me. While our marriage has brought joy, laughter and love, it wasn't enough to stop the fear that I was running from. We all realize someday that other people, great careers, humanitarian work, life experiences, academic achievements and cheap thrills can bring some happiness, but they won't fill us the way we hope.

"You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand." - Psalm 16:11

“Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.” - 1 Peter 8-9

Imagine that you lived in a tiny town in the middle of America that was nowhere near any ocean. All your life you grew up reading stories and watching films about it. You never doubted that it was a real place and looked forward to experiencing it someday. Eventually you move to a coastal town for a new job and one of the first things you do when you arrive there is drive to the nearest beach. When you finally turn a corner, the first glimpse you get of the endless expanse of water takes your breath away. It’s so BIG! You’re already in awe and you haven’t even parked your car yet. When you arrive at the boardwalk and open your door, the wind hits your face, you smell the salt in the air and hear the sounds of waves crashing on the beach. You’re suddenly aware that the ocean is like nowhere else.

As you walk onto the beach you stumble a bit as your shoes awkwardly fill up with sand. You take them off and throw them to the side discovering the sensation of warm sand between your toes as you continue towards the water. As you draw near the strong, moist wind cools your skin from the heat of the sun. The waves are crashing only a few yards away and the edge of the water occasionally tickles your feet. As you look out at the ocean and sky beyond you feel a peace descending and realise that you love the ocean. You could easily live in this moment and gaze out at it forever.

After walking up and down the beach for a while, you see a group of people swimming and enjoying themselves. You notice others surfing, longboarding and snorkeling. Being a confident swimmer already, you’re surprised when a bit of unexpected anxiety creeps up on you. What if you get pulled out to sea? What if there’s sharks in there? You don’t see any lifeguards nearby - what if you hurt yourself and nobody's around to help? You then realise with some relief that you didn’t bring your swimsuit anyway, so you decide to give it a try next time. You recommence enjoying the beach as you were before and commit to come back again next week for a proper dip.

As the week goes by you can’t get the ocean out of your mind. You tell your new friend about it and make a plan to return with them on Saturday. When the day comes, the anticipation has built up in your mind so much that when you arrive you barely pause to put down your towel before running straight to the waters edge. Your reservations from last week have lost their hold on you and within moments you’ve walked in up to your shoulders and are laughing with pleasure at the rising and falling of the waves. The ocean quickly becomes your favorite place on earth and you soon discover the many ways it can be enjoyed.

A year quickly passes and you visit your loved ones back home. You soon discover many others who share with you the same passion for the ocean. Your grandmother used to live in the same town and her whole face lights up as you tell her all of the amazing things you’ve been learning and experiencing. She tells you that once the love of the ocean has permeated your soul, it’s always there, even if you’re hundreds of miles from any beach. To your joy, she plans a trip to visit you there next summer.

One evening you’re chatting with an old friend and because it’s never far from your mind, you mention something about a recent ocean-related-adventure. Your friend looks at you incredulously as she affirms that the ocean only exists in movies and fairytales. They themselves have never seen it and they know many others who agree that it’s a scam to make people leave their town, waste time and money. You try to share your varied experiences, but you soon notice the pitying look growing on her face. She thinks you’ve lost your mind completely.

How can this be? Your friend has known you since grade school! You’ve never been a gullible person, how can they think that you’ve hallucinated an entire year of your life? She tells you that some people just really want the ocean to exist, because they need it to. She explains that the power of the mind and will is strong enough to make it seem real, because they can’t handle the reality of the world. This really throws you for a loop, you didn’t know anyone felt this way about the place you loved so much. Although you experienced in person it for the first time only last year, you grew up knowing that the ocean was a real place, because the evidence was available all around you. Still, you understand there have been countless scams that ruined lives and you can empathise with her wariness.

Your friend has a point about the power of the mind. What she doesn't see is that her mind is suppressing any hope that there's something larger than herself and the life she feels comfortable living. You feel an intense sadness for every rich experience she is willingly rejecting.

You can’t push anyone else to believe the ocean is a real and amazing place, they need to seek it out for themselves. Living there has changed you and people sense that. Fellow ocean enthusiasts recognize your bronzed skin and calm disposition instantly and smile at you with understanding. Others who knew you before you left ask what has changed, so you tell them. Some of them don't believe, while others make plans to visit the coast themselves. It is inexpressible joy every time someone freely joins you on the beach to run into the waves.


Although it’s a vastly incomplete picture, being in Christ can be like this in some ways. Being born again through the Spirit of God by the grace of Jesus’ death and resurrection leaves us forever changed. We know now that God is really real, Jesus is the son of God sent to deliver us from our sins and His word is completely true! We can feel the Father’s love and peace inside our hearts when we put our trust in Him. With veil removed we see the truth of the Gospel and the need for the rest of the fallen world to repent and put their faith in Him. Without a word, trusting in the promises of God clearly displays His love to others. I sometimes forget this and try to take back control of my life - falling straight back into an anxious and judgemental mind. Thankfully, He's always here to nudge us back when we wander from His peace.

Praise the Lord for His patience, mercy and love!